I know no one really blogs in our community anymore, but ..

Upon secondary review of my past doings, some of my actions/documented thoughts completely appalled and disgusted me. My sincerest apologies — I completely and utterly lost myself for a while, and displayed some rather hypocritical and distasteful behaviors. Sad face.

With that being said, out with the old and in with the new. I don’t quite know if I’ll be as active, but I do know that writing has helped me through some rough patches in my life and I intend to use it to my therapeutic advantage. 

Here is my new blog. Cheers!

He came home from work, hands placed behind his back. He then made his way towards me, bowed, revealed this box of chocolates, smiled and uttered, “Will you be my Valentine?” I giddily replied, “Yes!” and felt myself blush immensely. It feels amazing to know that regardless how much time has passed, he still has the ability to make me feel like a love struck pre-teen. I love you @imnguyenin, Happy Valentine’s Day!

Why not put it to good use.

Thank you for the rose babe! @imnguyenin 😍😘❤

Rooftop access.


ESTA. - WhatsItGnaMake (SEXTAPEreject)

I didnt feel like this was good enough to make it on the Sextape..

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I used to use this to release pent up emotions, but now I’m far more content pouring my heart out on an unknown account with no followers. 

This relationship made me more of a private person.

I like that.

Questions from TJ


1. Always post the rules.
2. Answer the questions the person who tagged you has written and write 11 new ones.
3. Tag 11 new people and link them to your post.
4. Let them know you’ve tagged them.

1. What is your favorite book?

I think anyone who knows me — knows how obsessed I am with the Harry Potter series. My 2nd grade teacher read a chapter to us every day and by the 4th or 5th chapter, I just couldn’t wait like the other kids (even as a child I was impatient). I just asked my father to buy me the books. I finished The Sorcerer’s Stone that very night, The Chamber of Secrets the following day, and finally The Prisoner of Azkaban after that. Being an adopted child, I found myself relating to Harry in terms of his sense of displacement. I also grew up with parents keen on limiting my television intake, so I turned to reading as an escape. I guess that makes it ‘books’ rather, but to me it’s like asking a mother to pick a favorite child. 

2. What’s one thing about you that no one could tell by looking at you or your Tumblr.

I used to enjoy parties, bar hopping, clubbing, and socializing with multiple circles of friends, but now I prefer a quieter life. My boyfriend and I have become pretty domesticated, so I tend to pick my warm bed and a new torrented movie over a night with friends at a bar. Unless it’s girls’ night. Girls’ night is sacred. 

3. You are given $1,000,000 to spend in one day. How would you spend it. 

I wish I could rattle off an organized list of responsible purchases/investments, but honestly I would have no idea where to begin if that ever happened. The one day limitation is giving me a mental anxiety attack. 

4. What’s your favorite food? 

KBBQ or deliciously made crab legs. 

5. Which character in a television or movie are you most like in terms of personality and behavior? 

Probably Fat Amy. 

6. You could fix one thing about yourself (external, internal), what would it be? 

External: Tone up my body. Internal: I would fix my drive. Not behind the wheels, but my drive to do things — whether it be writing or cleaning the house before my bf gets home from work. My gourd of inspiration/motivation is running a bit dry and it’s ironic being as January is the month where most people are gung-ho about their resolutions. 

7. What’s something that you collected in your past? 

Ex boyfriends. No, I’m fuckin’ with you, that’s horrible. I used to collect people’s business cards to build my branches of networking. You’ll never know when you’ll need an accountant or a funny ass taxi driver that knows you by your name. 

8. You are given a superpower of your choice. What would it be and why? 

Normally I would have put something like flying, but I really do want the power of being able to harness 100% of my brain’s capability. I guess you could call it the “Limitless” bug. It’s a self-reliant power and could you imagine the possibilities of being able to retain every single bit of information? I would be able to prosper in my dream career field, build a sizable income, assist my close friends and family, live happily ever after …  

9. If there was something you wish you could buy less of, what would it be? 

Clothes. I wish they’d just appear in my closet. 

10. What’s your go to show when you’re in a bad mood? 

Whatever show I’m trying to catch up on. At the moment? HIMYM. 

11. Yo TJ, you didn’t write an 11th question. 

But it’s cool. 

My questions:

1. What is your favorite movie and why. 
2. You are thrust into the world of Battle Royale (or The Hunger Games), name 3 things you want to end up with. 
3. Have you ever gotten high (marijuana, nothing else). If so, tell me about your highest moment, and if not, move on to the next question. 
4. Three things you want to say to your previous ex, and three things you want to say to the object of your affection/interest. 
5. If you could pick any actor/actress to play you in a movie about your life, who would it be and why. 
6. List 10 things you want to say to 10 different people. You do not have to list their identities. 
7. Would you re-live high school now that you know better. Why or why not. 
8. Describe me in one word.
9. Pick a time and era you wish to be transported to and why. 
10. Describe your dream date. 
11. The Apocalypse is real and you have 1 day before the world ends. How would you spend that day.

Made some salt and pepper wings.

Daaaaaamn Neville Longbottom.

Cup of Kings.

I am a tree. Deeply rooted, moving only to sway with the changing seasons. I am deeply embedded in the soil of the morals and beliefs that my mother instilled in me. Her seed of wisdom has now blossomed into a strong, sturdy entity. My branches stem out as a symbol of my growth as a maturing young woman. Each winding branch stands for the many directions I have decided to take in life, and each leaf signifies the growth from each decision well made. I am forever humbled, for these roots keep me eternally grounded. I may change according to season, but only because growth is inevitable. I may adapt to my surroundings, but only to prosper as a significant figure in society. Black and white, my sights are opposite. Instead, I view life in a multicolored haze. With each gaze, I absorb more knowledge, acquire more memories, meet and greet, make impressions, give and learn lessons. Pause. For the only black and white I see, are the thoughts in my mind that are centered solely on the permanent black ties of my family relations. My heart is intertwined with the beauty of the white angels hovering over my dearly beloved. I will forever be strong, for I am a tree. Deeply rooted, moving only to sway with the changing seasons.

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Her True Beauty


Beauty lies within the eyes of the beholder.  But how can it when all the beauty of the world is upon her? She gazes from a haze of men and women ogling her in ways.  Admiring her solely from the aura she displays. In daze, I see perfection. She is God’s finest creation. A classy lady from top to down, never opening her lips to utter a vulgar sound. A gateway to heaven, I found, was located in her eyes. Hypnotized by the vibes she puts out when she replies. The skies open, clouds part. She truly is an angel, I knew it from the start. Now I feel the pounding in my heart. Her beauty, so defined. Her complexion, so refined. My eyes are locked with full attention, I must also stop to mention, that I like the sexual tension.

<3 Elyssa Joy

I could have sworn I was the one who wrote this.

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Edibles part 3.